For years, I have tried to fight the battle of the bulge. I know I'm not alone in that battle, but sometimes it felt as if I were. I would try almost anything to lose weight. The new diet pills on the market. Fad diets, that promised weight loss but never did. In the end I would always lose some weight but turn right around and gain it back plus more.

At first I wasn't going to post how much I weigh, mainly because I was so embarrassed. See, I was made fun of all through school because chubby kids never fit in. Even as an adult, I get made fun of from time to time. It took my husband letting me know I was being laughed at yesterday in the grocery store, to put a few things in perspective. It was his ex-girlfriend laughing at me. Nice huh? But I looked at her and yes she is skinny, but then I realized something. She may be able to laugh because I weigh more than her but I remembered the talk that went around about her as well. Everyone gets talked about. There is nothing that could be done about that. So I made my up mind, I won't be like that. I won't be embarrassed any longer. I won't let someone that I see maybe once every few months determine if I keep my joy.

I will lose weight, but it won't be because of her. It won't be because of anyone that thinks they are better than me. It will be because I want it. I will take my time with it; I will not kill myself to do it. And most important, I will love myself in every part of the fight. I won't degrade myself by attacking back at people that laugh at me. I'm better than that. Making fun of people is wrong. We all have something that could be said. So I'm going to worry about myself and not everyone else.

I hope that you will be inspired, and follow along on my journey. It begins today. I will do my regular exercises, just to get in shape to do the ones I want to do the most. And they are just simple exercises like; leg lifts, stomach crunches, things like that. They work more than people know. See even though I weigh in today at 215, I have a lot of muscle. Now I'm not making excuses but I can prove it mainly by the fact that I wear a size 16 in jeans. Still big I know, but it's all over my body. I checked to see what size body frame I had and it turned out to be medium. For a woman, I wasn't happy. I wanted to be small framed like my mother. I wanted to lose weight and be tiny. I was disheartened when I found out my average body weight should be 130. But then I remembered when I weighed 149, I was small. I was the right size for my body.

I want to be healthy, not obese, not a rail, but healthy. I want what is right for my body, just like everyone else should. So join me as I fight. I will now go into more detail of the exercises and how I plan on winning this.

Starting with my calves; I stand up and flex to my tip toes and release without letting my heels touch the floor. After that, I go to the legs. I lie on my side and do leg lifts. Then I throw my leg over the other, bent at the knee and raise the leg underneath as far as I can. This works the inside thigh. Then I turn over and do the other side. After that I lie on my back and raise both legs off the floor and then lower them without them touching the floor, this gets the lower abs. Of course I do crunches next to get my upper abs. Then the rest of the body I will flex and release. I don't want to build muscle and look like man so I don't use weights. Resistant bands are great though.

Next week, I will be starting the P90X. I have heard a lot of things about this program. Now I know I won't look like they do on the infomercials. I will try though, and I will post everything, As well as pictures every 30 days. I also have a website that I will post every day on. It is http://www.myweightlossgoal.net you can join and we can chat and help inspire each other. Things are so much easier when you have a buddy.

I will eat better, I will make sure to replace junk with fruit and veggies. The birthday cake sitting in my kitchen right now has no interest to me. Odd for me. But it doesn't. It's a mind-set. And I have set my mind in to losing weight and being healthy. And I will stay that way. I will not give up. I will also learn to forgive myself and not let it control what I do in life. If I slip and eat something I shouldn't, than I will get back on the horse and try again.

My life has changed. I have two children. Both are to the point they want to get out and do more; 13 and 15. So I have to keep up with them playing sports, wanting to swim this summer, going shopping, and playing the Wii. They stay busy and want me to join in on their fun. And I'm glad of that. So I will keep myself busy. And I want to be around as they get older; having kids and need me around other things. I'm not ready to give in to diabetes. I won't have it if I do something now. So today begins a new era for me. Here's to being alive!

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